안녕!!!!!!!!!!!!OK GUYS I AM JUST SO EXCITED TO SHARE WITH YOU GUYS ABOUT THIS... YES I WENT TO U-KISS COLLAGE TOUR CONCERT SINGAPORE LAST SATURDAY... AND WORDS THAT DESCRIBE IT?

i mean like i really get to see one of my favorite group ever up close and this is just an simply awesome moment part of my life~ and it is not just purely the concert itself, i even went to the whole fan sign event and that is just so freaking awesome!!!!!


i will try to be calm as i can and recall all my excitement and also the cutest and random moments with these boys and post it up here ^^ because there are just too much feels over me that i might forget some of the stuff here




Prelude of the whole event:

actually i didn't expect myself to went for the concert. all because when the ticket sales went official, my kpop fanatic unni at workplace just grabbed the VIP ticket at once. and at that point of time, i am just thinking maybe i will wait till see if i got enough money to purchase it or not. and who knows, i dragged my purchase or wanting to go to the concert by one month and as the time past, i was actually watching more and more u-kiss videos till the point of time about one week before the actual concert, i am really in a total kissme mode and need the tickets desperately. and ended up both VVIP and VIP tickets are sold out and in my mind was like total freaked out. and there are lots of stuff happened here and there so in the end i managed to got my VIP tickets quite last min and thank god i am lucky to meet this kiss me who able to confirm the tickets with me just 2 days before the concert! i mean like seriously!!! 2 days before... can you guys imagine how freaked out am i till i nearly cried during workplace trying to find a tickets.



so i went to the event venue early in the morning and we started queuing and the weather is just freaking hot and seriously is like killing us... however thinking that going to meet up with u-kiss i need to actually bear thru it~~



fast forward>>>>> till the time we going in for the fan sign event.I got to talk to some of the kissmes in the queue and we start joking around. and seriously being a fan girl one good thing is that you are able to make new friends because of the same interest too bad that i didn't manage to get their contacts...

before we went in~ we all like so nervous and keep chatting. so till the point of time we went up and to prepare for the fan sign. so while we are queuing up, we started asking each other who is whose bias and why...so time will actually past by faster....and this is one part of the conversation that is just plainly funny~

*sorry didn't manage to get their name -.-*

kissme fanboy : "so later when i go in can i call them oppa"
kissme fangirl 1: "why say oppa?? guys should call older guy hyung instead of oppa!"
*all of us just started laughing!*
me: "omo you should tell him that, because if he call them oppa, they will remember him more!"
kissme fangirl 2: "oh ya! totally!!!! ok so later remember to call them oppa ok?!"

hahahahaha i mean seriously all of us are just crazy at the point of time till we saw all the VVIP fans went in first and all came out crying badly... i mean like seriously is it that emotional????



so all 5 of us make a promise that we must maintain must be a good manner kissme...so yeah we all went on and on till is our turn to go in. actually i prepared this electronic candy fan because i thought that the venue for the fan sign will be kinda hot so actually decided to like cool them down a bit...until i realize actually it is a air conditioned room -.- so whatever it is...we were just like keep saying "maintain...maintain" throughout the whole part till we actually walk in and knowing that they are just few meters away from us.



so once you step inside the room, it is just full of kissmes being total fangirls, screaming and shouting... so at the doorstep i am like already half dead, LITERALLY. the kissme fanboy was like keep saying "maintain maintain..." and another one and i say that totally cannot maintain already...we are dying...my gosh...THEY ARE JUST IN FRONT OF US BREATHING THE SAME AIR AND BLOWING THE SAME AIRCON O.O!!!!!!


and then there is this part whereby Hoon doesn't have any fan in front of him so we were like across the room and we just say his name loudly and he just wave at us smiling and show us a heart using his hand.....

and at that moment i knew i cannot take it anymore.... we were shouting and jumping around~ and photographers were snapping out pictures and i dont care about my image anymore~ as we were nearing the queue... and there it was i saw Kiseop oppa...at that moment i just stunned and mind went blank...there he was...sitting there beside kevin...THERE HE IS!!!!!



*IF YOU GUYS DIDNT KNOW, KISEOP IS MY MOST ULTIMATE BIAS IN U-KISS*


[fan account]

Kevin~

as the queue got near...i am just speechless and till the moment  me and Kevin make our first eye contact....



this boy just keep smiling, and yes he is the Kevin that you all know... that warm, gentle and always smiling Kevin... i mean oh my gosh he is just in front of my and all the words that i wanna speak to him about just gone totally!

so he was like hi! and waving brightly at me~ and i just bowed and said annyeonghaseyo...at this point of time i am already dead because of his cute voice~ so he keep smiling and looking up to me and said "thank you and hope you enjoy the concert tonight!" and we just freaking shook hands!!!!!!!!

Kiseop~

and there it goes....i slowly walk and stop in front of this one of the most perfect human being ever and i guess the time just stopped... i mean he is actually slow in doing every single thing. so actually my friend was passing him a small give and then he was like oh!...thank...you... *yes he is speaking kinda slow!* and then he slowly move the gift to the side where by the manager took it kinda quickly. he was like stunned a bit before he turned his head slowly and say hi and smile and me brightly.

BASICALLY THE WHOLE TIME SEEMS LIKE IT JUST STOP!!!  i mean he is doing things slow pace... and then i was stunned and greet him slowly...literally like "an..nyeong..ha...se...yooo" and he smiled at me~ and he signed and i shaked hand with him and he say thank...you...~ at this moment of time...my mind was like in total blank and died all that way through out... and yes i regretted that i didnt manage to get you a gift~

P.S Kiseop oppa!! i promised you that i will make you a gift and a korean written fan letter next time when you are here in singapore again... by that time oppa please learn more english!!! >.<

Eli~

i feel bad at Eli as i didnt manage to actually greet him properly as when i turned and saw him while i am regaining my calm self from my post "Kiseop oppa moment" he is already signing my ticket and he look up and smile. and i was just staring at him and he was like stunned a bit and asked why? i just shook my head and he smiled, shook my hand and said thanks~

Dongho~

Dongho is just a freaking cute dongsaeng he was like "HI!!!" this cute boy smiling cutely in front of me and i was like hi there~ *forget to speak to him in chinese*  and he smile and me with his smiling eyes and said "thank youuuuuu!!!!" and i shook his hand~ Dongho ya you are just so cute!!! my gosh!!!!!

AJ~

and then there is this super duper irritating AJ (i dont hate him hahaha~~~ i was just saying ^^)~ so he was like raised up his hand and say "annyeong!" and i gave him a high five~ so he was like busy signing and then shake my hand and said this "hope you enjoy the concert tonight~" and just as i thought that i gonna move to Hoon... he held my hand and grabbed it... so i was like stunned totally!!!! i mean i can feel that Hoon like looking here( as you guys know AJ keep talking to the fans for a long time and hogging up the whole queues...-.-) so there was i saying thank you very much and he shook my hand harder. i went on shook him back, and i was about to move he grab again and shook harder...so i decided to shake his hard harder and then he was like finally satisfied and he let me go while smiling brightly at me~

after that i gonna move to Hoon...and then this fan girl behind me actually is Soohyun bias...so when she move to AJ, i think she was looking at Soohyun and then AJ just literally said~~ "FOCUS! FOCUS ON ME OK?!" and he bursted out laughing... see this evil guy -.-

Hoon~

i bet Hoon is one of the cutest guy that i ever seen. he is just cute in doing everything...you know because he don't speak good English he was like "HELLO!!!!"  and i was like "hi there!" and he smiled like the cutest thing ever and keep giving cute expression to me. this guy is just really have a super funny character~ so once he signed finish he was like "thank you!!!!" and then actually i was holding this electronic candy fan so Hoon saw it and he was like going to take the fan... and then i was like shocked so i said sorry and he was like oh! sorry and shook my hand and say thank you brightly and i guess he felt a bit awkward as it is not for him~

Soohyun~

Yet i bet this one of the super cute leader ever~~~ i was overwhelmed by his super bubbly character and then he was like "HI THERE!!!!" *same as Hoon* i mean this leader are so funny!!! despite he cant speak English well he still try his best to communicate with the fans... so he signed my copy and say thank you!!! and then i shook his hand and did a HI-5 with him~

and so ya guess what throughout the whole thing, i could feel that Hoon is actually looking at me thinking will i pass the fan to Soohyun or not since he is the last member already. so when he realized that i didn't past it to him, he was like relieved actually...

at that moment of time, i am thinking how bad he must be wanting this thing hahahaha! i should have just past it to him, but because is like used before so i guess better don't >.<

so yup this is my fan account to the fan meet  i will blog about the concert part later~~~ since i have been blogging all these stuff for nearly 3 hours now! hahahaaha~



my kissme account to be continued~ ^^v

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안녕~ Hey Guys~ well this might be another random rants about my life or anything else haha. i mean recently just have too much thoughts about the most random things ever. SO WELL JUST LET ME CONTINUE TO RANT ON ^^


SO!!!! despite seeing the title of the post you guys might be like...eh diet??!!! YES JT IS GOING TO GO THROUGH A MAJOR DECISION OF HER LIFE!!!



well not very major but i have decided to well...diet O.O because i just cant stand my body and my look anymore. i mean nothing bad but frankly speaking i am just a bit too fat than normal people and i guess i should really start to slim down now. i mean who likes being called ugly and fat all the time? and you know what i hate? people who are skinny to hell and still saying that they are fat... i mean seriously??!!!!!

then why dont you try to put yourself in my shoes? i mean seriously i hate being fat all these freaking years... i mean it may because of the gene or what but well i just cant stand it. i dont mind being call nicknames by my friends or what, being insulted by people or what, saying this and that jokingly. even though it may seems like i am all right, still smiling but deep inside i already used to it, till that extend that i start to feel worse and irritated towards me.

and seriously i hate being judged by other people because of my looks.. i mean seriously!??!! and the face they gave even though it seems like they are joking but then i still take it quite seriously.


which girl in the world doesnt want to be pretty and beautiful to all the people. in this kind of cruel society, which only reality exists, is just not the same as what i think anymore. i used to think that there is nothing wrong with appearance as long as you have a good heart and care about other people, everything will be all right. however it just doesnt seems so.

so i have decided to go through diet and exercising  i do hope to have a major change in my life seriously because i have been hoping that it will come true than anybody else. previous diet plan failed terribly so i decided to try it on again as i have a brand new motivation and goals too.

it may be hard, but i really do hope that to all my friends that are reading this will just cheer me on will do. maybe i wont be meeting some of you guys that frequent in order to restrain myself in some of the stuff. regardless of which method in order to lose weight, i do hope that i really will be able enjoy my life as a normal person just like anybody else.

(peeps i am not going through plastic surgery or whatsoever...even if i have enough money i wont dare too -.-)
i mean barely there are any friends that stay with me throughout. those who i care so much... seldom even care about me actually. especially some just drifted away....ok i should stop emo-ing!



so i do hope that i am able to have a better life as a brand new JT. i still have such a long way to go my gosh... all i need is just time and more time to reach that goal. ok enough of ranting...all i need to pray hard now is that i am able to lose weight right? ^^ hahaha! ok this seems like rather a short ranting post...ok well i shall start work hard towards my goal~~~ ^^ all the best to me... FIGHTING!!!


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Labels: 2013, diet, gif, lifestyle, lose weight, myself, random, rant, ranting

안녕~ hey guys, this post is just gonna purely about my own thoughts and thinking about my life. Warning  beforehand, if you guys didn't like to read about all those long, naggy and irritating post, is best to actually jump to another website like NOW!!! *just kidding ^^* anyway don't expect those awesome English in this post so just my thoughts that i wanna convey actually.



Recently, for the past few days (or even weeks), i have lots and lots of thoughts that actually is running around in my head. regardless, of work, studies, friends, relationship etc. is like being more frequent ...well should i say that is like kinda putting me lots of stress? well, people might say that is just me giving myself these amount of irrelevant stress to handle, or i am just being oversensitive or whatsoever BUT HEY! DON'T TELL ME YOU GUYS DIDN'T THINK OF ALL THESE THINGS BEFORE???!!



some might said that having all these irrelevant questions on in my head is a bit too young for a 22 year old to handle. but which i highly doubt so as i think that i am not young anymore and i think it is the time to actually plan your future well. i mean like you should start wondering how you gonna live you life already right? -.-

Work~

My closer friends might know that i am actually working on a full time basis after obtaining my diploma. at first i didn't manage to get into university first is because well my results aren't that good anyways, and i think being in the workforce early might actually help and of course money right??! i must admit that i hardly have any savings currently as i am like literally supporting myself in regards of expenses, transportation and even bills.

i must say this, i really do love the working environment here, my lovely colleagues and of course my job title itself and the roles are not those routines ones compared to the others. should i say that actually almost every single day, there are different challenges and i do enjoy working with my department. however after being in this same stuff for nearly 2 years, i had finally decided to head back to a student life and had applied for university. this decision i have been thinking about it for days and nights and i guess one of the main reason is that i might be tired of my working life. i bet many of us are not that kind of systematic and routine person and we always try to have different challenges in our life and we wont be staying at a single place for such a long time.

so there are about 2 months plus of my working life is coming to an end and i guess i might really miss everything here.

Studies~

OK so i mentioned that i am going back to my student life by applying for university, and yes all the application went well and now i only need to wait till the results whether i am being accepted by the school or not. I really super excited going back to school! the results will be out on early June and it will start roughly around 2nd week of July~ seriously cant wait as i think study life suit me more for now.

so i decided to take up a RMIT Bachelor of Business marketing. With the diploma that i obtained, i manage so get exempted from some modules, well i didn't know how long will i be studying though but i am quite lucky that i might get exempted saving around 1 semester or more.

Ok lets go to something more personal now~

Relationship~

ok lets be frank to each other, for all the singles out there who doesn't want a perfect relationship in their life that last forever????! i mean like seriously! so this topic has been going round and round in my head like forever...i mean the full stop of my previous one is like nearly 4 years back? well i must say that that is my first one and till this day i keep asking myself why on earth i will like someone like him. i don't hate him, i just you know cant stand it O.O too innocent i know -.- ever since, i am really afraid to actually to come in contact with this thing call love. i mean it can bring you all the joy, and happiness but at the same time it can also bring you great sadness and broken hearts, something that just cant be tame with.

i see lots of friends around me are all attached and frankly speaking, i really do envy them, especially both my childhood friends. one of them are being together for nearly 7 years and still going strong and another couple they have bought one unit in the flats and planning to get married soon. i mean like wow i am also the same age as them but right now i am just...alone.




both of them have been asking me, especially the one i know her for 18 years, and she also feel so frustrated that why cant i have a proper nice boyfriend able to treat me well as she say if she was a guy she will just married me for sure. *i know sounds cliche but she had mentioned it like for years and lots of time now -.-*  so every single time i will be like "is ok..." and laugh it off as i don't think it is really important anyway till i finally got into an relationship and after that is over, both of them were so furious that they nearly go kill that guy -.- i mean like well is ok because i knew it all along that he just don't like me in a way and i don't even know why i wanna get into a relationship with him anyway and i cried alot that i even fall ill for a long time if i am correct. *knocking my own head -.-*

ever since then, this thing call love, well i don't even dare to touch it anymore. afraid that i will get injure again, and i even told myself that no one will ever like me i mean like look at me! i am not even pretty, i am fat and i don't have awesome inner characters like others so who would bother to even lay their eyes on me right? so even there is , i will just simple ignore it. and always for these few year i am like just secretly liking someone else without them knowing and just will care for them will do. and sometimes because of my low self esteem, i tend to actually avoid them. someone has someone else in their mind, some just i guess i am not worth it for them...

but every girls really do hope that they will be able to find that Mr right, i mean like for me i wanna get married before 30 which is like impossible for me. -.- just a dream thought, i bet i will never get married this life. sadly but true... so lots of thoughts have been going through my mind like crazy especially and i have even talked with few of my friends recently at Starbucks. well mixture of guys and girls and different point of views. is like different choices that i made will bring different consequences.i even told them that maybe after 30 i wont even get married already. well i am just not myself these few days i guess. we even further asking each other the stuff that we look at in guys and different scenarios that we gave as examples. i think the guys are quite shocked that my ideal guy criteria is so simple. i mean like will dream guy means that those perfect guys but you cant have them for example....yunho oppa O.O and just 3 simple thing that actually makes me think the guy is actually not bad is just.... trust, security and happiness. i mean these are the 3 main factor actually that keeps a relationship going. apart from the looks and etc these 3 are more important to me. well i don't wish my future boyfriend (highly doubt that i have one O.O) look like a kpop idol right?


anyways...being emotional also doesn't help anything as i guess the only thing i can do right now is to just let nature takes its course. i mean just let the day pass maybe one day i will find the answers to my questions. but in the meantime, maybe i guess i will be thinking over and over again and again.

Future...

i don't know what i can see myself doing in the future...my dream is to actually open up a theme cafe with lomography and the things i love along with my sister.... or i may just went overseas to do something that i like. or i might already get married have a happy family which i highly doubt that this is gonna happen to me.
*FOREVER ALONE* well i just hope that whatever i do in the future is all about my interest and stuff and may my life be simple yet happy will do. currently maybe i should put my focus on something else that is more important and ignore all these thoughts i guess...

i bet this a long post...to those who manage to read it all...*thumbs up!* hopefully i will feel better soon~ actually i have lots of things to talk about but then i only seems to manage to put these few main thoughts into words.
ok forget about all the emotional stuff and well at least i update my post right?! ^^ gonna end here and till the next time ^^



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Labels: 2013, april, future, gif, life, lifestyle, personal, random, thoughts

안녕!!!!!!! Hey guys!!! well since its gonna be end of march already and there are so so so soooo many things i need to update here like seriously!!!! so here is the post about the joint birthday that me and jane had~ and there is a thanks to i need to post for all the wonderful people that came to our birthday party ^^ so lets start shall we???



p.s (most photos are taken from me and my friends facebook and instagram, so all the credits goes to them ^^)

i will try to shorten the post because there are so many photos here and there and so many episodes etc so i gonna try to summaries all ^^

behind the birthday party ^^
so! actually around few months back before the actual birthday party~ jane was suggesting whether we should hold a birthday party together we a bunch of closer friends ^^ well since i like to attend parties all that so why dont we plan it! so from deciding the venue to the guest list and also to the small details like props for taking  photo, decorations and food we actually settle it like kinda last min actually O.O

so jane, mag and i met up early and check-in together as we decided that after bring the stuff and leave it in the hotel room, jane will went back to her house to get the food while me and mag will went to bugis and get the other things like drinks and more food and stuff~ it is a super rushing day and the weather is not helping as it is raining -.- same as last year when i am having my 21st too -.- (i did realise i cursed lots on that afternoon because of the weather, the rush and all the other factors. mainly the weather O.O)


for the venue~ we decided to have a staycation over the weekend at The Sultan boutique hotel. and anyway i must really talk about this hotel. this hotel has really the best of everything! the first thing that i super impressed is the excellent customer service. actually to tell you all the truth, seldom hotels allow people to hold parties in the room itself and seldom of them allow so many people in one room as this might cause some inconvenice to other people, but what is shocking that the sultan able to allow lots of people to stay overnight without any limits. i mean if the room able fit all of you guys then just indicate how many people staying over night will do ^^


so for the room that we book is the biggest among the others, the loft suite. it is like in two stories with the sleeping area on the top~ pictures below ^^

i mean once i saw the room, the first thought that came into my mind was... "it is so pretty and vintage!" yup it is super pretty and huge too! but if you expect there is a bathtub etc, well i need to mention that this is a boutique hotel, so relatively it is small actually ^^.

anyway for the food wise, most of the stuff is cooked by jane's dad! so thanks uncle for the food!!! and we all rush back to set up and everything~ well, it is a busy day of hell~ -.-

so in the end did manage to get the party started on time and so gonna spam all the pictures here ^^ and i shall stop the talking ^^ mostly all the birthday photos taken by different format~ lomography, phones, DSLR and polaroids~ ^^


and i also wrote a thanks to post and i uploaded it onto my facebook~~

so once again thanks to all the awesome people that make time come down to our birthday!!!! ^^ really really you guys are awesome!!! i believed me and jane have a great time and you guys also have a good time too!!!



so i will end here then~~ till the next post~ ^^v

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Labels: 2 days 1 night, 2013, birthday, friends, happy, ideas, lomography, march, party, singapore, staycation, sultan hotel, weekend