안녕!!! once again sorry that i have not been updating anything here~ recently has been busy with my school.


actually after ending my full time job, i have been resting at home doing almost nothing before i start school. I have always look forward of going back to student life ^^ I also had did some random things here and there (well not really physically doing some stuff but yeah...) For example like what i have mentioned in my previous post i have started writing fanfics... *time to promote my fanfics*


so for the nearly past one month, i have wrote one one-shot fanfic and a 10 chapters long fanfic. both are U-KISS and both are situation, which means you can try to picture yourself in the story ^^
so firstly wanna thanks to those little readers that saw my stories and gave such a great comments on it, regardless of in Asianfanfic site, or my Tumblr site...thanks for all the supports and love for the stories ^^

if you guys wanna check it out it will be at this two sites ^^
http://believetheneverland.tumblr.com/
or here ^^
http://www.asianfanfics.com/profile/view_author_stories/233650

and of course i may start to take in request from different fans soon as i have 2 stories outline in my mind right now, so give a hint which UKISS members will be in the next story?? *hint hint wink wink*



so...other than writing fanfics, another challenge that i have taken up is learning a guitar. Seriously, i have been wanting to learn guitar since a long time ago however i don't have the time or simple i don't have a guitar to start with >.<

luckily, my dearest friend, Mag, decided to organize a guitar lesson within our circle of friends, so i joined~ and thanks for lending me the guitar also ^^

reasons want to learn guitar?? well i wished i know how to play at least a musical instruments well and guitar just came right into my mind. i saw those youtubers that sang along while playing guitars are so cool!!! and some kpop stars do that too...so some of them are my inspirations. ^^

here are some of them ^^

just check out this awesome super talented Korean guitarist, Sungha Jung....i bet you guys will love him super a lot and watching him playing guitar is really awesome. he started at a young age (he is still young) but he is super talented! he did lots of covers for different songs so do check out all of them ^^

Jayesslee are this Korean twin sisters from Australia and this video just caught my attention and this is one of the reason i wanna learn guitar and playing Officially missing you is the song i will master it one day! their voices are super sweet and nice..do check all their videos ^^

of course i will try hard to practice and hopefully i can be as good as them ^^ wish me all the luck ^^

ok i guess i will do my update till here ^^ hopefully i am able to update more things here again! till then! 안녕!!!!!!

simple.serenity.of.dreams~serenityting

Labels: 2013, fan fiction, fanfic, guitar, korean, kpop, life, lifestyle, mine, music, myself, personal, random, school, talent, u-kiss, ukiss

안녕~ hey guys, this post is just gonna purely about my own thoughts and thinking about my life. Warning  beforehand, if you guys didn't like to read about all those long, naggy and irritating post, is best to actually jump to another website like NOW!!! *just kidding ^^* anyway don't expect those awesome English in this post so just my thoughts that i wanna convey actually.



Recently, for the past few days (or even weeks), i have lots and lots of thoughts that actually is running around in my head. regardless, of work, studies, friends, relationship etc. is like being more frequent ...well should i say that is like kinda putting me lots of stress? well, people might say that is just me giving myself these amount of irrelevant stress to handle, or i am just being oversensitive or whatsoever BUT HEY! DON'T TELL ME YOU GUYS DIDN'T THINK OF ALL THESE THINGS BEFORE???!!



some might said that having all these irrelevant questions on in my head is a bit too young for a 22 year old to handle. but which i highly doubt so as i think that i am not young anymore and i think it is the time to actually plan your future well. i mean like you should start wondering how you gonna live you life already right? -.-

Work~

My closer friends might know that i am actually working on a full time basis after obtaining my diploma. at first i didn't manage to get into university first is because well my results aren't that good anyways, and i think being in the workforce early might actually help and of course money right??! i must admit that i hardly have any savings currently as i am like literally supporting myself in regards of expenses, transportation and even bills.

i must say this, i really do love the working environment here, my lovely colleagues and of course my job title itself and the roles are not those routines ones compared to the others. should i say that actually almost every single day, there are different challenges and i do enjoy working with my department. however after being in this same stuff for nearly 2 years, i had finally decided to head back to a student life and had applied for university. this decision i have been thinking about it for days and nights and i guess one of the main reason is that i might be tired of my working life. i bet many of us are not that kind of systematic and routine person and we always try to have different challenges in our life and we wont be staying at a single place for such a long time.

so there are about 2 months plus of my working life is coming to an end and i guess i might really miss everything here.

Studies~

OK so i mentioned that i am going back to my student life by applying for university, and yes all the application went well and now i only need to wait till the results whether i am being accepted by the school or not. I really super excited going back to school! the results will be out on early June and it will start roughly around 2nd week of July~ seriously cant wait as i think study life suit me more for now.

so i decided to take up a RMIT Bachelor of Business marketing. With the diploma that i obtained, i manage so get exempted from some modules, well i didn't know how long will i be studying though but i am quite lucky that i might get exempted saving around 1 semester or more.

Ok lets go to something more personal now~

Relationship~

ok lets be frank to each other, for all the singles out there who doesn't want a perfect relationship in their life that last forever????! i mean like seriously! so this topic has been going round and round in my head like forever...i mean the full stop of my previous one is like nearly 4 years back? well i must say that that is my first one and till this day i keep asking myself why on earth i will like someone like him. i don't hate him, i just you know cant stand it O.O too innocent i know -.- ever since, i am really afraid to actually to come in contact with this thing call love. i mean it can bring you all the joy, and happiness but at the same time it can also bring you great sadness and broken hearts, something that just cant be tame with.

i see lots of friends around me are all attached and frankly speaking, i really do envy them, especially both my childhood friends. one of them are being together for nearly 7 years and still going strong and another couple they have bought one unit in the flats and planning to get married soon. i mean like wow i am also the same age as them but right now i am just...alone.




both of them have been asking me, especially the one i know her for 18 years, and she also feel so frustrated that why cant i have a proper nice boyfriend able to treat me well as she say if she was a guy she will just married me for sure. *i know sounds cliche but she had mentioned it like for years and lots of time now -.-*  so every single time i will be like "is ok..." and laugh it off as i don't think it is really important anyway till i finally got into an relationship and after that is over, both of them were so furious that they nearly go kill that guy -.- i mean like well is ok because i knew it all along that he just don't like me in a way and i don't even know why i wanna get into a relationship with him anyway and i cried alot that i even fall ill for a long time if i am correct. *knocking my own head -.-*

ever since then, this thing call love, well i don't even dare to touch it anymore. afraid that i will get injure again, and i even told myself that no one will ever like me i mean like look at me! i am not even pretty, i am fat and i don't have awesome inner characters like others so who would bother to even lay their eyes on me right? so even there is , i will just simple ignore it. and always for these few year i am like just secretly liking someone else without them knowing and just will care for them will do. and sometimes because of my low self esteem, i tend to actually avoid them. someone has someone else in their mind, some just i guess i am not worth it for them...

but every girls really do hope that they will be able to find that Mr right, i mean like for me i wanna get married before 30 which is like impossible for me. -.- just a dream thought, i bet i will never get married this life. sadly but true... so lots of thoughts have been going through my mind like crazy especially and i have even talked with few of my friends recently at Starbucks. well mixture of guys and girls and different point of views. is like different choices that i made will bring different consequences.i even told them that maybe after 30 i wont even get married already. well i am just not myself these few days i guess. we even further asking each other the stuff that we look at in guys and different scenarios that we gave as examples. i think the guys are quite shocked that my ideal guy criteria is so simple. i mean like will dream guy means that those perfect guys but you cant have them for example....yunho oppa O.O and just 3 simple thing that actually makes me think the guy is actually not bad is just.... trust, security and happiness. i mean these are the 3 main factor actually that keeps a relationship going. apart from the looks and etc these 3 are more important to me. well i don't wish my future boyfriend (highly doubt that i have one O.O) look like a kpop idol right?


anyways...being emotional also doesn't help anything as i guess the only thing i can do right now is to just let nature takes its course. i mean just let the day pass maybe one day i will find the answers to my questions. but in the meantime, maybe i guess i will be thinking over and over again and again.

Future...

i don't know what i can see myself doing in the future...my dream is to actually open up a theme cafe with lomography and the things i love along with my sister.... or i may just went overseas to do something that i like. or i might already get married have a happy family which i highly doubt that this is gonna happen to me.
*FOREVER ALONE* well i just hope that whatever i do in the future is all about my interest and stuff and may my life be simple yet happy will do. currently maybe i should put my focus on something else that is more important and ignore all these thoughts i guess...

i bet this a long post...to those who manage to read it all...*thumbs up!* hopefully i will feel better soon~ actually i have lots of things to talk about but then i only seems to manage to put these few main thoughts into words.
ok forget about all the emotional stuff and well at least i update my post right?! ^^ gonna end here and till the next time ^^



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Labels: 2013, april, future, gif, life, lifestyle, personal, random, thoughts

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

 새해 복 많이 받으세요!!!

OF COURSE!!!! this is one of the main events of the year that i am looking forward to! ITS CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! people will be getting busy doing spring cleaning their houses, decorating up their homes with new year decorations, shopping for new clothes and shoes, getting their hair done etc~ well as per the past years since i am born, i will be celebrating my new year in Malaysia with my mum's side of relatives.

every single year we will have to fight those crazy jams over the custom as there are people from all places rushing to Malaysia to celebrate the new year with their loved ones. despite all these, i still enjoy myself going back to my grandma house to celebrate it~ and i do enjoyed myself celebrating new year in Malaysia compare in Singapore.

reasons being???

• - lots and lots of relatives will be gathering at my grandma's house thus we no need to travel here and there
• - we are able to play fireworks and fire crackers!!!! of course!! some of my friends are kinda shocked that i dare to light up fire crackers and fireworks too. this is because firecrackers and fireworks are banned in Singapore for nearly 40 years! thus the generation nowadays didn't have a chance to actually play with it. Only recently, fire crackers are allowed in major Chinese new year countdown events by the officials, then people will be only able to see it for the first time~
• - lots of Chinese new year goodies of course!
• - my mum, aunts etc will gather up and make up various delicious meals with their own specialties i mean besides the food, able to see them catch up with one another is a lovely scene~
• - more ang baos (red packets) of course!

so all of us reached our grandma's house on the new year eve~ the weather is kinda cloudy actually because it has been raining non stop for those few days~ but is a bit hardly to see such amazing clouds in the sky~


and of course! being there on the Chinese new year eve, you will expect that when the clock struck 12 midnight, there will be amazing fireworks up in the sky!!!! is like everywhere!!!! i will need to stand there for roughly 30 mins in order to view finish the fireworks and its like fireworks madness everywhere!!!!



oh and then met some of my nephews and nieces, they all are grown up so fast!!!!

well then, there are some parts that i don't like (here i gonna start ranting again -.-) people come in and the first question that popped to you is "eh....gt boyfriend already or not??"  "wahhhh still have get married ah???" and any other related questions etc

i mean like oh please~~~~ am i that old enough to get married?? is like i am only 21 going 22 soon!!! -.- so what up without a boyfriend. even though that i want to be in a relationship, there isn't anyone out there for me. so i am still single and available -.- the part i don't like the most is like they will go stress up my mum about my stuff and my mum don't know how to answer -.- oh please -.-


ok well at least i do have great times spending with others though ^^ ok i shall end here~ ^^

Labels: chinese, chinese new year, fireworks, life, lunar new year, random

안녕~~~!!!! in a blink of eye, the month of January is already past! which means we only left with 11/12 of the years to go! hahaha! time fly past fast and i believe everyone don't wanna waste the rest of the year right?


so people~! start to PLAN PLAN PLAN! start setting goals and plans of what you are going to do in the rest of the year. well i have some plans that i do wanna execute in the year 2013. well not sure all gonna be fulfilled but i still will try, since year 2013 is kinda an important year for me.

1) GETTING INTO UNIVERSITY

well, this is my most most most ultimate goal of the year. getting into a university. after have been working for nearly 2 years full time, its time to get back to school. (guys i am not that old >.<). and i am gonna go for full time course. is not that i detest working environment, but just wanna upgrade myself with better knowledge and also decided to take a break from work. I have thought of working and taking part time studies at the same time but, i think it is just too time-consuming and i am afraid that i do not have that kind of energy to be able to survived the whole day with all the work and study at the same time. so well, gonna get back in school in no time later of the year and i do hope i am able to applied in it.

2) TRAVEL TO MORE PLACES

travelling to different parts of the world is my most ultimate dreams of all time. If i do have so much money and my lovely friends able to accompany me, well why not?! i even do have thoughts of going Korea alone. (i must be mad -.-). actually there are some plans that was actually wanna travel out of Singapore when my guys friends are out from army. but given by the fact that, money is the issues and unconfirmed date, i don't even know what is the plans now. however, i do hope to travel overseas soon, well basically anytime since i realized that i wont have chance to travel overseas when i start my university life soon.

THINGS THAT I ALWAYS WANTED~

i do remember that i have created a wishlist of what i want last year however i think i don't even get it most of them hahaha! well so this year i am so gonna come out with a brand new ones, with better reasons to get it ^^

and after all these, i still have a mysterious 3 months plan for myself. well i am not gonna reveal anything because it seems like if i mention it, i wont be able to reach my goals. because of someone, she makes become my inspiration and since she can do it why cant i?? well i am gonna be so loner or alone for that 3 months somehow will be out of social network stuff i guess O.O



oh yes~ and of course upcoming kpop concerts that i wanna go. i still hoping desperately for dbsk and jyj to come to Singapore for concerts. i am still hoping!!!! if not i am gonna sit at one corner and cry T.T

I DEMAND SM TO BRING DBSK TO SINGAPORE FOR CATCH ME WORLD TOUR!

ok so somehow that's about it? i gonna blog more soon!!! oh ya by the way today is actual birthday of my lovely jaejoong oppa~ so


gonna end it here~~ ^^

simple.serenity.of.dreams~serenityting~

Labels: future, gif, goals, kpop, life, plans, random, wishlist

안녕!!! can't help but decided to post up another one to kill some time.~~

SO... from the blog layout, to the words, the music, the images.. ok basically what you can see in this tiny space of mine in front of you...you can tell that i am like a freaking kpop fanatic...

YUP I AM THOSE THAT WILL GO CRAZY FOR MY BELOVED IDOLS AND I CANT LIVE WITHOUT ANY DAILY KPOP VIBE RUNNING THROUGH MY BLOOD THOSE KIND OF PEOPLE!

kinda exaggerating right? but I'm not, to those who like kpop stuffs from the music to the drama and everything, and caught in the hallyu wave, they will understand it.

I have been in contact with this amazing kpop thing since like years ago. (i am not old -.- i am just like 21 years old only!). If i remember correctly, the first ever thing that i came in contact with kpop should be some Korean drama. and of course with the help of our amazing Internet and social media etc, i came to know more about this country and KPOP.

You will start watching different dramas, listen to the music, from there on you will start spotting for those cute guys and pretty girls that you saw in those dramas or music videos. For me i think Korean drama is kinda a big influence to anybody as you will know about the culture of the country and other stuff.

There are different kinds of kpop fans which i think there are like 2 category to me.

One who likes to watch korean dramas, basically any korean dramas despite is sad, dramatic, those long and draggy ones. Most of the ahjummas (middle age women) fall under this category. For example, my lovely mum. She is those kind that will glued herself in front of the the television or my laptop in order to catch up with different dramas. She can still even stayed up to 3 to 4am in the midnight in order to finish the drama. Even my dad can't stand her -.- When meet up with friends, they start discussing nothing but the dramas -.- imagine that. #kpopmums

Another one will be like those most common one. KPOP FANATIC. well most of the crazy fangirls and fanboys fall into this category. Basically chasing of your lovely idols that you adore, stalking them if they have any social media (official facebook, twitter, cyworld etc), went crazy if they gonna have any concerts, buying their albums, joining their fanclubs... ok too many to be listed, those who are extremes ones (yes i am talking about sasaeng fans) can follow their idols anywhere they go -.- i never understand them and never encourage this kind of actions -.-

AND OF COURSE!!!! I'm those kind that have idols that i adore etc. and you continue to read on my blog in the future, you will know i post lots of things about kpop or basically those idols that i adore.

I am a fan of many bands and singers, there are also a few that i really like them because of their amazing talent and etc. However if you ask me which band i am being the most ultimate fan girl that will be TVXQ!/DBSK/TOHOSHINKI/東方神起/동방신기.



Being a Cassie (Cassiopeia - fan club of TVXQ), is hard. Being a hardcore cassie is even harder. Well reasons being that you will keep falling in love with this amazing and talented 5 guys and also at the same time being dorky too. I have been a fan of them since 2006 and till now i am still loving these 5 boys too... if you are didn't hear about them before go google up!or just watch and live performances of the boys, you wont regret it, because I've managed to convert one of my friends to a huge dbsk fans ^^

Other that DBSK, there are also a few bands that i really like. Like SHINHWA, U-KISS, KARA, BOA.... these are the few idols and singer that i really like and adore.

however being a fan of all these idols are hard, because you'll never know when you can see them in person and depends the company too, they might or might not have any overseas activities at the country too. so imagine you will need to keep praying hard that your beloved idols that will come to your country.

I think i am consider lucky enough as i have met some of my favorite idol especially DBSK even though i met Yunho and Changmin though, i met Shinhwa~ and also BoA, U-Kiss and of course some of the others idols too. But as you know the more you see them in person, the more you are hoping to see them in future.

Other than hoping to meet them in person, having enough money to go to their concerts, fan meets, getting their merchandises, albums etc is also another issues. There are those even more crazy ones that will even go on the further by booking airplane tickets and follow them secretly. THAT'S JUST INSANE!

However all these negative wont stop fans loving and supporting their lovely idols. Because for me, it is something that made quite an impact on my life. Listens to the songs depends on my mood, can go crazy with my friends about the kpop and much more. I tend to find my sense of belonging when i am listening to songs that follow my mood, watch variety shows to make myself happier in different ways.

so for those who didnt come in contact with a kpop fan, or unable to understand why they behave like this or that, hopefully that you will understand more about them now. is just part of the life ^^

ok enough all the whole long crap of things that i spilled out here shall end here ^^

simple.serenity.of.dreams~serenityting~

Labels: dbsk, fanboy, fangirl, korean, kpop, life