안녕!!! once again sorry that i have not been updating anything here~ recently has been busy with my school.


actually after ending my full time job, i have been resting at home doing almost nothing before i start school. I have always look forward of going back to student life ^^ I also had did some random things here and there (well not really physically doing some stuff but yeah...) For example like what i have mentioned in my previous post i have started writing fanfics... *time to promote my fanfics*


so for the nearly past one month, i have wrote one one-shot fanfic and a 10 chapters long fanfic. both are U-KISS and both are situation, which means you can try to picture yourself in the story ^^
so firstly wanna thanks to those little readers that saw my stories and gave such a great comments on it, regardless of in Asianfanfic site, or my Tumblr site...thanks for all the supports and love for the stories ^^

if you guys wanna check it out it will be at this two sites ^^
http://believetheneverland.tumblr.com/
or here ^^
http://www.asianfanfics.com/profile/view_author_stories/233650

and of course i may start to take in request from different fans soon as i have 2 stories outline in my mind right now, so give a hint which UKISS members will be in the next story?? *hint hint wink wink*



so...other than writing fanfics, another challenge that i have taken up is learning a guitar. Seriously, i have been wanting to learn guitar since a long time ago however i don't have the time or simple i don't have a guitar to start with >.<

luckily, my dearest friend, Mag, decided to organize a guitar lesson within our circle of friends, so i joined~ and thanks for lending me the guitar also ^^

reasons want to learn guitar?? well i wished i know how to play at least a musical instruments well and guitar just came right into my mind. i saw those youtubers that sang along while playing guitars are so cool!!! and some kpop stars do that too...so some of them are my inspirations. ^^

here are some of them ^^

just check out this awesome super talented Korean guitarist, Sungha Jung....i bet you guys will love him super a lot and watching him playing guitar is really awesome. he started at a young age (he is still young) but he is super talented! he did lots of covers for different songs so do check out all of them ^^

Jayesslee are this Korean twin sisters from Australia and this video just caught my attention and this is one of the reason i wanna learn guitar and playing Officially missing you is the song i will master it one day! their voices are super sweet and nice..do check all their videos ^^

of course i will try hard to practice and hopefully i can be as good as them ^^ wish me all the luck ^^

ok i guess i will do my update till here ^^ hopefully i am able to update more things here again! till then! 안녕!!!!!!

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Labels: 2013, fan fiction, fanfic, guitar, korean, kpop, life, lifestyle, mine, music, myself, personal, random, school, talent, u-kiss, ukiss

HEY GUYS I AM BACK!!!!! 안녕!!!!!*WAVES*

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안녕~ Hey Guys~ well this might be another random rants about my life or anything else haha. i mean recently just have too much thoughts about the most random things ever. SO WELL JUST LET ME CONTINUE TO RANT ON ^^


SO!!!! despite seeing the title of the post you guys might be like...eh diet??!!! YES JT IS GOING TO GO THROUGH A MAJOR DECISION OF HER LIFE!!!



well not very major but i have decided to well...diet O.O because i just cant stand my body and my look anymore. i mean nothing bad but frankly speaking i am just a bit too fat than normal people and i guess i should really start to slim down now. i mean who likes being called ugly and fat all the time? and you know what i hate? people who are skinny to hell and still saying that they are fat... i mean seriously??!!!!!

then why dont you try to put yourself in my shoes? i mean seriously i hate being fat all these freaking years... i mean it may because of the gene or what but well i just cant stand it. i dont mind being call nicknames by my friends or what, being insulted by people or what, saying this and that jokingly. even though it may seems like i am all right, still smiling but deep inside i already used to it, till that extend that i start to feel worse and irritated towards me.

and seriously i hate being judged by other people because of my looks.. i mean seriously!??!! and the face they gave even though it seems like they are joking but then i still take it quite seriously.


which girl in the world doesnt want to be pretty and beautiful to all the people. in this kind of cruel society, which only reality exists, is just not the same as what i think anymore. i used to think that there is nothing wrong with appearance as long as you have a good heart and care about other people, everything will be all right. however it just doesnt seems so.

so i have decided to go through diet and exercising  i do hope to have a major change in my life seriously because i have been hoping that it will come true than anybody else. previous diet plan failed terribly so i decided to try it on again as i have a brand new motivation and goals too.

it may be hard, but i really do hope that to all my friends that are reading this will just cheer me on will do. maybe i wont be meeting some of you guys that frequent in order to restrain myself in some of the stuff. regardless of which method in order to lose weight, i do hope that i really will be able enjoy my life as a normal person just like anybody else.

(peeps i am not going through plastic surgery or whatsoever...even if i have enough money i wont dare too -.-)
i mean barely there are any friends that stay with me throughout. those who i care so much... seldom even care about me actually. especially some just drifted away....ok i should stop emo-ing!



so i do hope that i am able to have a better life as a brand new JT. i still have such a long way to go my gosh... all i need is just time and more time to reach that goal. ok enough of ranting...all i need to pray hard now is that i am able to lose weight right? ^^ hahaha! ok this seems like rather a short ranting post...ok well i shall start work hard towards my goal~~~ ^^ all the best to me... FIGHTING!!!


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Labels: 2013, diet, gif, lifestyle, lose weight, myself, random, rant, ranting

안녕~ hey guys, this post is just gonna purely about my own thoughts and thinking about my life. Warning  beforehand, if you guys didn't like to read about all those long, naggy and irritating post, is best to actually jump to another website like NOW!!! *just kidding ^^* anyway don't expect those awesome English in this post so just my thoughts that i wanna convey actually.



Recently, for the past few days (or even weeks), i have lots and lots of thoughts that actually is running around in my head. regardless, of work, studies, friends, relationship etc. is like being more frequent ...well should i say that is like kinda putting me lots of stress? well, people might say that is just me giving myself these amount of irrelevant stress to handle, or i am just being oversensitive or whatsoever BUT HEY! DON'T TELL ME YOU GUYS DIDN'T THINK OF ALL THESE THINGS BEFORE???!!



some might said that having all these irrelevant questions on in my head is a bit too young for a 22 year old to handle. but which i highly doubt so as i think that i am not young anymore and i think it is the time to actually plan your future well. i mean like you should start wondering how you gonna live you life already right? -.-

Work~

My closer friends might know that i am actually working on a full time basis after obtaining my diploma. at first i didn't manage to get into university first is because well my results aren't that good anyways, and i think being in the workforce early might actually help and of course money right??! i must admit that i hardly have any savings currently as i am like literally supporting myself in regards of expenses, transportation and even bills.

i must say this, i really do love the working environment here, my lovely colleagues and of course my job title itself and the roles are not those routines ones compared to the others. should i say that actually almost every single day, there are different challenges and i do enjoy working with my department. however after being in this same stuff for nearly 2 years, i had finally decided to head back to a student life and had applied for university. this decision i have been thinking about it for days and nights and i guess one of the main reason is that i might be tired of my working life. i bet many of us are not that kind of systematic and routine person and we always try to have different challenges in our life and we wont be staying at a single place for such a long time.

so there are about 2 months plus of my working life is coming to an end and i guess i might really miss everything here.

Studies~

OK so i mentioned that i am going back to my student life by applying for university, and yes all the application went well and now i only need to wait till the results whether i am being accepted by the school or not. I really super excited going back to school! the results will be out on early June and it will start roughly around 2nd week of July~ seriously cant wait as i think study life suit me more for now.

so i decided to take up a RMIT Bachelor of Business marketing. With the diploma that i obtained, i manage so get exempted from some modules, well i didn't know how long will i be studying though but i am quite lucky that i might get exempted saving around 1 semester or more.

Ok lets go to something more personal now~

Relationship~

ok lets be frank to each other, for all the singles out there who doesn't want a perfect relationship in their life that last forever????! i mean like seriously! so this topic has been going round and round in my head like forever...i mean the full stop of my previous one is like nearly 4 years back? well i must say that that is my first one and till this day i keep asking myself why on earth i will like someone like him. i don't hate him, i just you know cant stand it O.O too innocent i know -.- ever since, i am really afraid to actually to come in contact with this thing call love. i mean it can bring you all the joy, and happiness but at the same time it can also bring you great sadness and broken hearts, something that just cant be tame with.

i see lots of friends around me are all attached and frankly speaking, i really do envy them, especially both my childhood friends. one of them are being together for nearly 7 years and still going strong and another couple they have bought one unit in the flats and planning to get married soon. i mean like wow i am also the same age as them but right now i am just...alone.




both of them have been asking me, especially the one i know her for 18 years, and she also feel so frustrated that why cant i have a proper nice boyfriend able to treat me well as she say if she was a guy she will just married me for sure. *i know sounds cliche but she had mentioned it like for years and lots of time now -.-*  so every single time i will be like "is ok..." and laugh it off as i don't think it is really important anyway till i finally got into an relationship and after that is over, both of them were so furious that they nearly go kill that guy -.- i mean like well is ok because i knew it all along that he just don't like me in a way and i don't even know why i wanna get into a relationship with him anyway and i cried alot that i even fall ill for a long time if i am correct. *knocking my own head -.-*

ever since then, this thing call love, well i don't even dare to touch it anymore. afraid that i will get injure again, and i even told myself that no one will ever like me i mean like look at me! i am not even pretty, i am fat and i don't have awesome inner characters like others so who would bother to even lay their eyes on me right? so even there is , i will just simple ignore it. and always for these few year i am like just secretly liking someone else without them knowing and just will care for them will do. and sometimes because of my low self esteem, i tend to actually avoid them. someone has someone else in their mind, some just i guess i am not worth it for them...

but every girls really do hope that they will be able to find that Mr right, i mean like for me i wanna get married before 30 which is like impossible for me. -.- just a dream thought, i bet i will never get married this life. sadly but true... so lots of thoughts have been going through my mind like crazy especially and i have even talked with few of my friends recently at Starbucks. well mixture of guys and girls and different point of views. is like different choices that i made will bring different consequences.i even told them that maybe after 30 i wont even get married already. well i am just not myself these few days i guess. we even further asking each other the stuff that we look at in guys and different scenarios that we gave as examples. i think the guys are quite shocked that my ideal guy criteria is so simple. i mean like will dream guy means that those perfect guys but you cant have them for example....yunho oppa O.O and just 3 simple thing that actually makes me think the guy is actually not bad is just.... trust, security and happiness. i mean these are the 3 main factor actually that keeps a relationship going. apart from the looks and etc these 3 are more important to me. well i don't wish my future boyfriend (highly doubt that i have one O.O) look like a kpop idol right?


anyways...being emotional also doesn't help anything as i guess the only thing i can do right now is to just let nature takes its course. i mean just let the day pass maybe one day i will find the answers to my questions. but in the meantime, maybe i guess i will be thinking over and over again and again.

Future...

i don't know what i can see myself doing in the future...my dream is to actually open up a theme cafe with lomography and the things i love along with my sister.... or i may just went overseas to do something that i like. or i might already get married have a happy family which i highly doubt that this is gonna happen to me.
*FOREVER ALONE* well i just hope that whatever i do in the future is all about my interest and stuff and may my life be simple yet happy will do. currently maybe i should put my focus on something else that is more important and ignore all these thoughts i guess...

i bet this a long post...to those who manage to read it all...*thumbs up!* hopefully i will feel better soon~ actually i have lots of things to talk about but then i only seems to manage to put these few main thoughts into words.
ok forget about all the emotional stuff and well at least i update my post right?! ^^ gonna end here and till the next time ^^



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Labels: 2013, april, future, gif, life, lifestyle, personal, random, thoughts